We can't chose what triggers us, only how we respond to it. That's the thing about trauma (no matter how severe). There are always things that are going to trigger you - it can literally be the slightest thing. Most days, I can feel triggered and know that I am about to go downhill and … Continue reading Trigger.
I stopped working with my nutrition coach. I originally signed up for three months to see where I could take my body but something happened in the last few weeks. I felt my energy depleting, mainly because I had increased my training at Crossfit. I found myself faced with a lot of "going out" situations … Continue reading Time For A Break.
I've been feeling myself fall into a downward spiral. I know what triggered it (won't dive into it), but I'm in awe as to how aware I am. I know exactly what is causing me to feel down and I'm seeing that every little thing is effecting me. I'm trying to crawl out of this … Continue reading Downward Spiral.
I have to admit, I've been pretty run down the past week. From the moment I first subbed in March, to getting the interview and demos at the new gym that I was just hired at - add Crossfit on top of that mix and WHOA.I''ll be honest, I'm just tired with a dash of … Continue reading Run Down.
Yesterday I had a phone court hearing to finalize my divorce. I honestly am not sure how I feel, probably because it was on the phone and not in person. A couple of weeks before the hearing I decided to stop also dating. I had been dating for about five months with awful luck. I … Continue reading Boundaries Pt. II
I was feeling used. Like I mention in my last post, my ex and I got very comfortable. Last week, he asked if he could come over to see the kids and talk. I asked, "what did you want to talk about?" He said, "not that you care but..." He had been stressed out with … Continue reading Used.
I debated on writing this post, but my mind has been racing. During the last three weeks of December, so much happened; my brother go into a car accident, I had a family member pass away, my grandmother ended up back in the hospital and my ex and I finally re-filed for divorce on December … Continue reading To New Beginnings.
"Happiness is a journey, not a destination."This quote has been said by many and I often try to remind myself of this. I was re-watching Matt D'Avella's video on The Happiness Paradox and in this video he says "the more we think about the things we don't have, the more we remind ourselves we don't … Continue reading Pursuit of Happiness.
I'm not going to lie, I've been dragging the past week. Ever since Thanksgiving, my mindset has plummeted. I had this same feeling last year when I had my first "separated" Thanksgiving and Christmas from my children's father.While it makes me happy to see others happy, it the pit of my stomach I feel angry. … Continue reading Celebrating Holidays Separately.
It's been over a week since I last posted. There has been so much going on in the world, it caused me to reflect on all the discrimination I have faced since going to college in a predominantly white area and moving to New England. I started spiraling into a bit of depression. I went … Continue reading Thoughts.