I've been feeling myself fall into a downward spiral. I know what triggered it (won't dive into it), but I'm in awe as to how aware I am. I know exactly what is causing me to feel down and I'm seeing that every little thing is effecting me. I'm trying to crawl out of this … Continue reading Downward Spiral.
I have to admit, I've been pretty run down the past week. From the moment I first subbed in March, to getting the interview and demos at the new gym that I was just hired at - add Crossfit on top of that mix and WHOA.I''ll be honest, I'm just tired with a dash of … Continue reading Run Down.
I was feeling used. Like I mention in my last post, my ex and I got very comfortable. Last week, he asked if he could come over to see the kids and talk. I asked, "what did you want to talk about?" He said, "not that you care but..." He had been stressed out with … Continue reading Used.
I debated on writing this post, but my mind has been racing. During the last three weeks of December, so much happened; my brother go into a car accident, I had a family member pass away, my grandmother ended up back in the hospital and my ex and I finally re-filed for divorce on December … Continue reading To New Beginnings.
I'm not going to lie, I've been dragging the past week. Ever since Thanksgiving, my mindset has plummeted. I had this same feeling last year when I had my first "separated" Thanksgiving and Christmas from my children's father.While it makes me happy to see others happy, it the pit of my stomach I feel angry. … Continue reading Celebrating Holidays Separately.
It's been over a year since my husband and I separated. While there were moments since then that we've "tried again" for the millionth time, it always ended up in the same result. Ever heard that "other" definition of insanity? "Doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result."As much as the … Continue reading Acceptance.
Thursday was a rough day. I went to a particular grocery store for the first time in three weeks and I just felt massive anxiety come over me. People were being rude, watching your every move. It just felt so odd. Walmart is the only place I can go in "peace." I go once a … Continue reading Anxiety.