One night a few weeks ago when I was putting my oldest to bed and I started rubbing her back.
It just hit me that her back was “massive.”
She no longer was the little 22 month old when she first asked me to rub her back. At that time, my hand could cover most of her back. Now it’s a little girl, with a larger surface area on her back.
She’s been growing so much since she started school.
She is learning to express herself much more and learning so much even through these crazy times (thank you teachers, you rock!!!).
After I put her to bed that night, I just had a sense of guilt take over me.
“I need to rub her back more.”
“I need to tell her I’m so proud of you for doing so well in school more.”
“I need to tell her that she is such a smart and brave little girl more.”
I know I am a good mom, but there are always simple things we can do more of; it’s important to grow.
It’s hard not to feel a sense of mom guilt, especially during these times.
One thing that’s been bothering me is knowing that screen time has increased for all my kiddos.
Between colder days, my oldest doing school work remotely and the twins watching TV WHILE my oldest does her school work, it’s rough.
I know, I know… it’s okay.
But the whole “it’s okay” is just easier said than done, especially when said to a mom or primary parental figure.
I just need to remind myself that I am doing the best that I can and that everything is going to be alright.
One day at a time… ❤
